Medication.

Buspirone, to be precise. It’s a mild anxiolytic (anti-anxiety) drug in the azapirone class, meaning it works on the neurotransmitter serotonin, but in a slightly different way from standard SSRIs like Prozac and Lexapro. I really thought I was done with medication, but two weeks ago, after meeting with my doctor, I agreed– after much hesitation– […]

Strike a [Power] Pose

Years of dance training have taught me that the shapes we make with our bodies can have a profound influence on our moods and emotions. Perhaps nowhere has the mind-body connection more been more evident to me than in the dance studio; the way a student feels about a step, a correction, or a part […]

The Agoraphobia Workout

Let’s briefly revisit December 2012, almost three and a half years ago, when three consecutive days of panic attacks took me from a fearless life alone in Washington Heights to a sobbing, nonfunctional heap on my childhood bed. This was one of the most difficult, terrifying periods of my life so far. In the weeks after […]

The Starbucks Enigma

I am thrilled to announce to you all that after a long and difficult journey, I am finally ready to make the following proclamation with absolute confidence: I love coffee. Groundbreaking, right? I know. Coffee is in many ways the quintessentially american addiction. Especially in my age bracket of overscheduled twenty-somethings, caffeine intake has reached a status […]

Getting Back on the Horse

  (You’re welcome) For me, at this stage, sometimes a “bad anxiety day” isn’t even the worst part. It’s the morning after, waking up with that unnamed sinking feeling, and suddenly remembering: Yesterday I failed. Again. With this thought comes a bleak kind of depression that can hang around for days if I let it. This […]

Lost In Space

  Falling in love. Falling asleep. Falling apart. Falling. A moment of total release. It can be a sublime or a terrifying rush, a transcendent, floating space, or just absolute quiet. Generally, one only feels this when one is truly falling, either physically or between mental states– out of an airplane, into unconsciousness, in a dream. For […]

Rhythms

I’m a dancer, so rhythm is a huge part of my life, but rhythm is at the core of every human’s existence. Think about your heartbeat, the breath cycling through your lungs, the blood coursing through your veins. Rhythm is integral to life, and I’ve also found it to be very healing. Music, breathing exercises, dance, […]